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A Nancy Drew Mystery Story by Carolyn Keene
Nancy Drew pulled her snappy blue convertible up to the airport curb, Titian hair gleaming beneath the sun of another golden River City afternoon. To the casual onlooker she was a picture of style and calm, but her jaw was set at such an angle that those closest to her would know something was amiss.
“Nancy, my girl!” Carson Drew was always thrilled to see his only daughter, and her presence at the airport was unexpected. A successful lawyer with his own practice, he was returning from a consulting trip in New York City. His excitement at the surprise did nothing to diminish his ever-present suave, and a few passing air hostesses tripped over themselves as he took his seat in the car.
She nodded, acknowledging him without making eye contact. “Dad.”
“Why, what’s the matter?” asked Carson, radiating concern from above the lapels of his suit. It had been just the two of them since her mother’s death, and he doted on Nancy. (This explains the convertible and the gleaming Titian hair—no one’s hair is Titian without money involved—and we haven’t even gotten into her smart frock and matching shoes.)
“We need to talk,” she said carefully. To the chagrin of the air hostesses, the Drews pulled away and entered airport traffic.
“What’s going on, kitten?”
In a measured voice, she came out with it. “I'm not mad at you anymore, Dad.”
Carson laughed, confused. “Why were you mad at me, Nancy?”
(While it should be noted that Carolyn Keene was firmly of the Faulknerian “don’t hesitate to rob your mother” camp of authors—as well as an adherent to Didion’s philosophy that writers, as a people, were “always selling somebody out”—she chooses to redact the next eighteen to twenty paragraphs of vicarious rehashing. The Nancy Drew Mystery Stories were nothing if not a vehicle for processing her own life [see: The Clue in the Old Planned Parenthood; see also: The Mystery of Why I Am Like This], but she’d spent too much time in full prosecutorial mode, litigating the past in ways that, while occasionally cathartic, no longer served her. She simply could not spend another 900 words—let alone another 30 years—chewing the same gum when it came to Keene family dynamics.)
Carson was silent as Nancy parked the car in front of his large brick Colonial, waiting until she removed the keys from the ignition to turn to look at her. “Nancy, you’re 45 now. I didn’t realize you were feeling this way, and for so long. I’m sorry.”
Nancy sighed. It had taken her a while to get here, she knew that, but it was somewhat of a relief that she didn’t seem to be the only one stuck in the injustices of their adolescence. She’d spent hours discussing it with her friends Bess and George, which—as George had short brown hair and Bess was blonde—represented a true diversity of experience. She’d come to the conclusion that her own traumas were as uniquely horrifying as everyone else’s, and considered it a testament to the triumph of the human spirit that anyone was still around and walking upright after surviving their teens and early 20s. Unfortunately this realization did nothing to release the time-capsule effect on her and Carson’s relationship, and though holding onto suspicion, evidence, and accusation had served Nancy well in her 30-year career as a Girl Detective, something had to give.
She said as much to Carson, but what she couldn’t say (and what Carolyn Keene really didn’t want to put down on paper) was that deep down she felt she would have softened much sooner if she’d had children herself. A lack of interest in stewarding someone else through those impossible years had contributed heavily to her decision against it (see: The Case of the Missing Frontal Lobe; see also: The Ghost of Karmic Debt), so only now was she gaining an agnostic understanding of the inevitable fallibility of parenting, both as a task and as a concept. She’d long understood that Carson was a fully realized person, but when it finally hit her that he’d also been a son, it for some reason broke her heart. Avoiding heartbreak was yet another reason she hadn’t had kids, and over the previous few decades she’d ascended to near-professional levels of burying her feelings entirely. It wasn’t until she was nearly 40—that quasi-universal starting line for acceptance of our time being limited—that she truly began to believe Carson would not be around forever. It was then Nancy started work full-force on The Quest to Finally Get Over This Sh-t.
“Dad, you know what a ‘desire path’ is, right?”
“Of course,” said Carson, “It’s a walkway between two places that didn’t originally exist—but it’s the better path.”
“Exactly,” she said, going on to explain that while they veered from the route set by circumstance, paths of desire were far preferable, and worn in by repetition and consistent use. Likewise, carving her own path towards forgiveness—of both herself and Carson—had taken years. She saw therapists and energy healers. She stopped drinking, which unleashed every ounce of devastation and grief she’d previously Kobe’d into the trashcan. She trauma-dumped on inappropriate audiences at inappropriate times (see: The Case of Why the F-ck Did I Say That Out Loud?; see also: The Secret of the Ruined Birthday Party). She limited contact, oscillating between anger and sadness so intense that she felt dizzy when she closed her eyes, and we’ll just yadda yadda the rest, until one day Nancy woke up and was just sort of…free. (Actually, it’s probably more accurate to say that Carolyn Keene had simply exhausted all avenues of thought on the subject, but in doing so she’d found herself imagining what her parents must have gone through as sons and daughters of people born in the emotionally unregulated 1910s, and thought often of the hope and desire they must have harbored for her own path when she'd been born. She came out on the other side still not quite believing in unconditional love, but that's not to say she wouldn't continue to test the theory by putting her family on blast across 56 serialized installments of self-obsession disguised as mystery.)
Carson sat very still in the passenger seat as the sun began to set over River Heights. The inclination to have spent this much energy sorting through one's past was beyond foreign to him, and while he was frankly relieved that she'd more or less left him out of the processing of…whatever this was, he had raised her to assess and strategize, to rely on logic rather than raw emotion, and—when she was stuck on a particularly thorny case—to spin her wheels for no longer than 25 years before taking a new tack. He told her he was proud before hugging her good night and heading inside for a very large Old Fashioned, and as Nancy drove away both she and Carolyn Keene knew for certain that a new chapter was beginning (see: The Unspoken Pact to Never Again Bring Up 1996–2003; see also: The Secret of Arguing Without Raising Our Voices, Wow, We've Really Come a Long Way, Haven't We?).
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